ColoUrful eVenTs of the HEart!

2010-03-27T10:20:00.000-07:00

26 MARCH 2010
School's starting soon! I hope {smiling} ; oh gosh, i really miss studying.. i still can’t forget last year, during those times when i studied for my ‘o’ levels.. i waa really at the urge of giving me up.. , but i didnt , because i always believed that no matter what i do in life, i will never want to give up. So i didn’t. Ah! I had fun just now..I went to my [Farhan]brother’s concert. Everything was quite okay. AND Faizal Isa was there! Ahhhhhh, he is so cute with his cute dance move..But i do not know why i wasn’t being as crazy like last time when i saw him at Plaza Singapura and when he was standing beside me at Causeway Point in Banquet at the Ayam Penyet stall. He’s so white  However, i do not think i’m as obsess with him already. Another ordinary Sinapore singer. OMG! i just can’t believe that i woke up around 5pm today, thanks to Rohsayyidi. Hahass, what a funny fella. Anyway, Faris is a very RANDOM person. He’ll be the one texting me, but the next thing i’ll know, he’ll not reply. ~so weird~ “suka hati la kau” hahasss, im still curious about ZUZU ALEXA. The question is who is she? Well, i do not even know. But what i know is , she had something with Faris. Last time. Even though this random fella is no one to me, i really curious to find out what happened to them. One way is by reading herrrrrr BLOG. Even though i am slow at reading people’s blog, i’ll manage. “Love me for who i am, not for who you want me to be”. This love thing can’t be forced. Love me or leave me. I have everyone , i have everything but i do not have that love i used to have. The feeling of emptiness sucks. I am really happy and blessed to have friends who loves me. I just need somone to be there. Thats all. ~unspoken feelings of the heart~ Yes, i am very confuse and no, i can’t forgive that someone(s) for what happened in the past. People, appreciate what you have because you’ll never know that you’ll lose it all. And be lucky cause you’re not in my shoes. MUSIC is what i need now, to release stress. KAK NUR!~ i miss her ....... miss laughing with her, joking with her, irritate her. And of course not forgetting my cute buddies; FAIZAH and ARINA (: haha, finally epul got it, i was ignoring him AND he tegur-ed. I thought he won’t realise. Anyway, things are better between us now. Okay, i will stop ignoring him. Ah, its so quiet now. I hope the past won’t repeat. I’ve learned my lesson;choose wisely but do not be choosy because no one’s perfect.Still i’m waiting for my ‘Prince Charming’................ “ Bila melihat mata mu, ku yakin ada cinta, ketulusan hati yang...... aku bukan Nabi, yang bisa sempurna. Ku tak ..... dari dosa”{takdir cinta} <3 “kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri.........satu jam saja, ku telah bisa cintai kamu kamu kamu, di hatiku. Namun bagiku melupakanmu butuh waktu ku seumur hidup”(Saat Terakhir} “apalah arti hidup tanpa cinta.. apalah arti cinta tanpa kasih,, dan apalah arti diriku tanpa hadirmu..apalah arti semua tanpa dirimu”{apalah arti cinta}ly

25 March 2010

2010-03-25T00:22:00.000-07:00

Finally! Im not gonna let my blog dieeeeeeeeeee...
heehee... Ah, been gone like a few months.. sorry!I had alot of things to settle.
the latest thing i wanna update isssssssss!, im going RP and taking business application course... im happy coz i dun have to travel far, {save bus fare money} :D
Im forgetting about my past.
Moving on.

Things couldnt get better each day.JUST GIMME A BREAK!
oh my.some things that i do not know, i will find out some day.
LIED AT, FEELINGS BEING CHEATED, PLAYED ARD WITH.
best.
i hate knowing the fact that i am not good enough for no one.,
someone said ' you are a nice person'.
so wat? it dosent make any difference at all.
Like it or not, people will never stop. Even my own friends could hurt me.
Hahaaa.. a taste of my own medicine?
The thing is, did i do wrong to any of you?
Thanks for showing me that some things are too gud to be true.
I love every moment of my life.
People, just stop hurting me. Please.

2009-11-04T04:18:00.001-08:00

i want to be freee!
baby, you heard me (:

2009-11-04T04:14:00.000-08:00

i've been spending some time with sakinah lutfi!
my dearest adik :D
and im looking forward in meeting ZUL FADHLI!!!

some how, smt's not right!
:)

i wanna move on, i gotta move on..
i have to..
dun keep coming back, pls...
let it be.. .
im not meant for you,
she's meant for you..

ps : that sweet boy makes me smile:)

2009-11-04T03:31:00.000-08:00

2009-10-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday was fun fun fun!
im lucky that i found ikhwan, fun n funny guy!
heee!
i haven laughed so much since yesterday!

alamak i gtg study!
o levels!
ahhhh!, streess!

gtg!

ps; why you keep coming back when im ready to let you go?

u'll never wanna let me go..

2009-10-24T01:20:00.000-07:00

some pictures !
sorry for the late update!

2009-10-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

i miss those times!
...... graduation day coming..
hope i wont cry!

2009-10-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

shower me with all the love i need,baby..
then, im all yours (:

2009-10-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

life's so unfair

2009-10-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

Thursday!

2009-10-08T04:18:00.000-07:00

stress! exams coming..!

you know, i think i did a mistake, i shouldnt have acted that way,
it was wrong, whatever happen that day was wrong..
you can only have one person in your life, and that's her, not me..
i think, im leaving everything behind, including you..
its not easy for me to make this decision for me,
but it dosent seem to be fair for me..
i wan you to be a better person and live a great life..
even though im leaving, im keeping my promises..
you're the best..
memories will never forgotten, promise..
i want you, but i can't have you..
i wanna love you, but my heart refuses to accept you..
im am deeply, sincerely sorry..
you did your best, i know..
if i come back, means im yours..
if i dun , means im never meant to be yours.. please learn to let me go,
bcoz its unfair for me..
i cnt keep holding on to something that i never had..
and dun be mad/sad.. please :(
i hate doing this but i have to.
i am sorry.. kekasih gelapku..

2009-09-22T04:37:00.001-07:00

2009-09-22T03:38:00.000-07:00

anak dara n mummy!

see that ring!

:D

bermaafan :)

:D smiling!

the purples! 1st day raya!!!

monday! 2nd day raya! its the blues...:)

pengantin baru first raya together!

my family!

selamat hari raya 2009!!

:D

i had fun this raya! :)
we went out as a whole family n it was great !
ah!
adnan(NOT MY EX) finally texted..
i was waiting...
rupe rupenye.. pamalu orangnye, cute seh..
love talguess what, this is the first time i come across someone who thnks like me AND we got quite a few things in coomon..
cool or what!
cnt wait to jalan raya! guess it'll be fun fun fun!

my FRIENDS, dun get it wrong..
rais rahman; those things u said were so hurtful, but i still forgive you..
nyiyaz;sorry for being quiet.. text me soon..
aidil;whr u go? i feel bad..
kekasih gelapku;happy birthday!
someone;u gotta try to get bck my trust..
esham; ah! no comment! idiolt fella..
mohd khamis;move on! go.

its not easy to fall in love..
n nt easy to trust people..
no ones understands hw it feels to be me..

ps:aku butuh cinta sejati, bukan cinta palsu..
to be patient is all it takes..

2009-09-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

today's 090909 baby!

i love TENGKU ADIL!!
ahhhh!, his song is nyce :) really nice...
love it when i first heard it!

2009-09-09T04:31:00.000-07:00

aishah misses you, you know that..

isssssssshhhh!
moodswing! i hate it !!!

usah biar ku bersendiri,
usah biar semua berlalu...
dun ever forget the first time we met..., never.. .

Friday, 4 September 2009

2009-09-04T02:33:00.000-07:00

i think i'll fail for chemistry for prelims! :(
~susahhhh la...
....forget lots of stuff.. nvm; its over +_+
!!!!! people gave me advises....
they've helped me out but i juz cnt seem to change the way i think about myself...

gimme time....

..i blame my past!

...yes people! u made me this way..

....everytime i try to move on..,

....the pain just wont go away..

.....i tried okay, i did try.. .

......i'll let it be.. .

ps: when you say you love me; mean it

i miss you (:

Wednesday, 2 September 2009

2009-09-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

i live for what i do..i have no rules.well,maybea one;i try to remain true to my heart..Wherever it may lead me,it's always open.i live
for the day,but i still have BIG DREAMS;D

Tuesday, 1 September 2009

2009-09-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

Girl's Night Outing yesterday was great!
had sooooo much fun ! :D
something that wont be forgotten!
i got some dengdeng! n saw some handsome n pretty faces+minahs n mats..eeee!
but the fun stopped when we had to go hme..
came hme at 11.25..then,,,,
ahhh! kena scolded by my dad.
i juz kept quiet all the way, not a word .
i was really tired then kena his nagging.
adui!
n my parents not in good terms. *stress*
i tried to help out, but not easy.
i just hope they'll be ok.
dun wan this to affect my studies.
i hope it wont.
my brother! tk guna uh he.
feelings i kept inside is terrible.
it hurts seeing my mum in this situation.
n my dad is abit heartless.? when he's gd, he's gd.
but he likes taking revenge. n tats bad.
btw the teacher's day concert was great uh!
i realy dunnoe mustakim can sing?!!!
it was reaaaali nice..
my day is juz turning from bad to worst..
yeap.
wat to do, its life.. like it or not..
hahs! people out there who have a great life... dun ever take it for granted n apprecite it!
i do appreciate wat i have now.

its juz the beginning..

PS : The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live..

2009-08-29T01:05:00.000-07:00

words can never replace feelings :)

Thursday, 27 August 2009

2009-08-27T03:20:00.000-07:00

us again!

fantastic four :D

shocked? me too!
first time i wear after a loooooooong time!

some ppl juz take things for granted.now they cn choose to play wif ppl's feelings but its juz not fair. they take things too lightly.
why nowadays, it seems like almost all guys are the same?
im sick of getting criticises frm these ppl.
LEAVE ME ALONE!

i wanna smile again..
n stop crying..
yea i do smile but deep down.. its juz different..

Sunday , 23 August 2009

2009-08-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

i'll keep smiling if you keep loving me..

love that innocence in your eyes :D

i wont be me;without u

u make me smile , baby :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 19TH BROTHER;idris!!
AHH! u so old already!
heehee!

10 more weeks to my o levels!
prepared? gonna be..
scared? yea, scared to dissapoint my parents...
stress? abit..
sleepy? very!heehe...
hungry? yes yes yes! still tgh tahan!

m i missing YOU? alot!
m i still hurt? what u think.... recovering..
m i tired of this? maybea..
m i strong enough to let go? i m but my heart is not...
m i ready? no!
can u ever understand me? i have no idea..
m i sure that u'll leave? yes, very sure..
wan u to stay happy without me? yea, thats all i want for you..

im really tired!

finally, BRYAN texted me..
hw shocking..
heee!
thought he was long gone..
hmm, alaa.. i dun care la..
m nt interested anymore..
we juz come frm two diff worlds..
really..

juz hate when ppl pass ard my number..!
irritating!ish! ppl! dun do tat cn?!

ps:i am sorry if i can't be the one ..
i just wanted you to know;when i said i loved u, i meant it..

2009-08-21T02:55:00.000-07:00

baby, when u say u love me, mean it..
n i noe u do :D

let me go when u think its the rite time..

are u gonna kip lying to me?
u cn lie all u want.
all i hear are lies.
n empty promises..

arifin; u wanna call me a bitch?
yea thnks! say watever u wan.
i appreciate all ur comments.
i cn take note tat im a BITCH to u.
btw,listen.stick to one b4 u lose all.
n it dosent mean u cnt get me means u have to call me a bitch.
hmmm, u're happy rite?
tats all i want.

16.08.09
kekasih gelapku;
it was the best day...
all i wanted was to be ard ur arms..
i didnt wanna let go, serious.
u cn see hw much i adore u but y do i still have doubts
when u say u love me..
i wanst sure if that is true.
even though im afarid that i'll lose u,
i realised tat i neva had u.
show me smt.
show me its true u love me.
tat songs u sang;misssed it alot..
tell me smt, do you think its easy for me when i noe im nt the oni one.?
yea, its easy to find another person,
easy to say..... bt could i ever replace u?no.
yea, its so wrong to love u ;
it was my mistake, yes i noe.
but it was the rite mistake i did.
i was use to it not having u ard,
but mt heart isnt.
one day,u'll sure leave.
im not strong enough for anything.
but i hopoe u appreciate wat i'll do for u.
really, its all for u..
m i desperate to find someone? no.i neva was.
but i noe i havent had enough of my kekasih gelap.
i'll do well for my o level; for u..
i'll kip u in my heart, tats whr u belong..
n i juz wanna feel,when u held me ard ur arms,tat u love me tat much..
show me,my dear..
i u :D
love ur shy smile..
theres smt tat i love abt u; they way u look at me :)

ps : sing for me (:

2009-08-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

all i see is ur face..

i smile for u:)

**flower gurls**
:)

i oso love her;)
NABILAH

i juz wish u could stay...

kebaya gurl ;D

cute couple! :D

:D

love love love her :)

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!!

:)

weeeweeet!
my gorgeous cousin:D

this is wat happen during the weekends! last weekend!

ahhh!
very tiring but its all worthwhile...!

at last u called ;D
thought u left me....

PS : There's nothing quite as beautiful as the unintentional.

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

2009-07-29T02:36:00.000-07:00

go on if u choose to leava..
i dun wanna be the one holding u back..
last two days was terrible..
i wasnt feeling as cheerful as last time..
is smt missing?

kekasih gelapku; dun ever think i've forgotten u..
cnt seem to forget u..
but i noe that u'll stay happy with HER.
if u read tis, juz dun forget me..
heee, miss those times..
rmbr the first day;u drew henna on my hand..
ahh! u're so swit..
n hot!;D(ssshhhhhh!)

idzuwan, its too late..

the only one i depend to make me happy , is gone.
i didnt know tat it wont last.
ppl come n go, now i believe it.

juz sick n tired of ppl treating me like tis.
u expect me to understand u but the problem is u cnt even understand me!
wat the hell.
giving me all those crap.
LIES. LIES. LIES.
sick n tired of LIES.

okay okay , i'll chill...
da da..
i gtg!
im living my life kk..

n hope kin n tiq will be ok soon..
btw stay happy kinno! i wanna win my bet:D

ps:hurt without ur presence

2009-07-17T04:37:00.000-07:00

* Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract
* Intelligent and clever
* Changing personality
* Temperamental
* Quiet, shy and humble
* Honest and loyal
* Determined to reach goals
* Loves freedom
* Rebellious when restricted
* Loves aggressiveness
* Too sensitive and easily hurt
* Showing anger easily
* Dislike unnecessary things
* Loves making friends but rarely shows it
* Daring and stubborn
* Ambitious
* Realizng dreams and hopes
* Sharp
* Loves entertainment and leisure
* Romantic on the inside not outside
* Superstitious and ludicrous
* Spendthrift
* Learns to show emotions

well, tats me :D

Friday, 17 July 2009

2009-07-17T04:23:00.000-07:00

i've been feeling soooo tired the whole day..
my whole body aches..
i need a break frm all this..
not studies, but u..

i've waited long enough idiolt..
im so over it.

everyday, i juz miss u more; kekasih gelapku (:
i cnt forget u, juz dunnoe y..
i need time.

ahhhh!
i gtg la..
i'll be back soon!

ps: i need docter fin to cheer me up! :D

Sunday, 12 July 2009

2009-07-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

:D

blueks!

kinny n aishah!

pompan sundal;
tats wat i was called yesterdae.
i didnt need tat but it was frm someone who 'love' me.

i need tyme to chill..
thnks for tat uh , mr.perfect..

been out wif kinno on saturday!
to studyyyyy!
n i spent some tyme wif her :D
miss her la!

heee,,, n at nite it was my cuzzie-in-law burfdae:D
happy 25th burfdae, tashy!

took some photos!
eat!
took more photos!
eat some more!
played games wif everyone!

i had fun!

oh ya, i went out wif fin on friday..
i teman-ed hym go town coz he was alone..
i had some crazy fun tyme wif mr.prataman!
hahsss.!
he made me laugh til my stomach pain la!
heehee,,!
n thnks for the ayam at pizza hut la fin!
heehee,, we really shared alot of stuff on tat dae! :D
thnks mr.arifin alot, for being there for me!

stop criticizing me.
u noe im not strong enough to face this.

im not listening to u, call me wat u wan, but its not worth it.

badrun,a swit, n oso {HOT}, opsssss!
baik , supermodel:D taught me tat life is wonderful;juz cherish it:)
n ignorance is bliss..
to trust n believe in myself..
not to give up..
be more patient..

n he made me smile..
swit la..

bt well im still holding on.. .

Thursday, 9 July 09

2009-07-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

:D

i had my mt oral yeasterday!
dunnoe if i cn make it or not.
my malay sux.
my eng sux.
haiya!

still recovering,,
hahs..
but well, its beta i kip it a secret.
each day, the pain juz get worst..
so hard to heal;but i never let it show.

i've been bz with sch stuff..
ish! n im so damn tired of everything.
gimme a break ppl!

psssst!
since u confessed, im juz afraid of falling again..
hais..

i juz cnt explain what im feeling rite now..
like a needle pierced through the heart?

not ready for anything yet!

must study hard n smart!

get better grades!

n smile always :D

boy,u're so swit;)

2009-07-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

baby, i hate hw much i love u.
but now,i dun need u .

evonne;aishah
my sweet cousin :D

watever it is;u're out of my life

u found ur happiness;
after all this time, now its my turn..

once is enough to lose everything,,
n im nt gonna waste my time crying for u..
its not worth it..
i've let u go,.. pls dun ever come bck..
n im really happy for u kay..

n i dun seek for anyone's sympathy ..
..juz understand what im going through,,
easy to explain uh, but its not easy to go through it..
trust me, it sux..
but i'll manage..

lagi lagi si org tu tk habis habis nk bbl pasal org lain, padahal tk sedar diri sendiri.. some ppl juz cnt take it tat i cn be in love..

watever it is, i'll leave my past;
n never repeat the mistakes i did..
thnks to u, u showed me smt that i didnt expected.

boy, each day u juz make me like u even more..

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

2009-06-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

fun la! :D

idris;hariz;farhan;aishah

i love them :D

weee!

HARIZ-my loved brother:D

FARHAN-my dearest brother:D

Aishah ;) tats my name. . heehee.. .
IDRIS-my beloved brother:D

ahh!
school da start!
hmm, guess wat, this time i reaaly feel semangat to study..
but i kinda slack abit;nvm.i'll try my best to change my bad habits..
hee, must start waking up early for school! :D
slp early!
do my hmwk on time!
concentrate!
n be committed to my studies!
tats why im in 4 COMMITMENT! hee:D

gah! im stress abit ;not abt my studies but some ppl..
i've been doing alot of thinking;n i guess my decisions are final..
hey dude!yes u! u make me smile with ur funny jokes..
hahsss..~
tat dude's name is ARIFIN;my good fren;P

i've waited long enough for u, n trust me, im still waiting..
..my lonely moments are lost in ur thoughts..
but if there's someone out there tats gonna steal my heart away,
pls dun ever feel guilty or regretness..
some things are hard to explain;u wont understand..

i lost something i guess..
=ur trust=
i've hurt u badly..
dun ever think that i didnt realise wat i did wrong.. .

i watched anugerah juz now! hee!
love some of their performances..
this show reminds me alot bout hym..
gosh;i miss hym alot..
those songs he sang;i juz cnt get them out of my mind
he has forgotten me i guess

~~boy,ur swit,cute voice juz give me those chills!

u cn find someone better..
n yea, dun kip holding on..
juz let me go.. .

let me get things straight here..
this is MY blog n i cn do WHATEVER i wan with it..
no matter wat u say to me;
no matter hw much u wanna criticise me;
no matter hw much u take advantage of me,
i'll never feel down..
i'll stay strong..
n i'll stay happy selelu,coz life's juz too short be sad all the time..
Live,, laugh,, love baby! ;)
not bothered with any of ur comments..Blahblahblahblahblah ! :D:D:D
n trust me, u're juz wasting ur time..:)
get a life (:
(sape sape di luar sana, tk mau terase iye,n yes, im toking to u!)
heehe. ..

'''you are my inspiration''';n My only desire is to dwell in ur heart
im really lost in love's whispering sounds ..... but......
i juz need u to look me in the eyes n tell me sincerely n honestly that u love me..

{i wanna be a better person}

{i'll kip smiling}
tapi harap muke tk cramp uh!
heee!

n i did post some slides of my photos in my previous post..
i was juz too lazy to edit..
n all those pictures are original kay!
tk edit langsung!

so enjoy ya!
n comment all u wan k ppl:)

Saturday, 27 June 2009

2009-06-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BUFDAY BESTIE!
may all ur wishes come true :D
missing u alot ;P

i miss u

To Nina:

2009-06-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

since you always baca my blog rite.wooww!! im soo honoured to be hearing so. gerek lar seh...tak tahu aku ade banyak peminat.senang-senang kalau nampk kat luar mintak autograph larhh.stop mengarut-ing at my blog uh.and anyway,kesian aku tengk kau nie,didnt know u are paid to do this kinda job.brape uh die bayar kau??

PS: eh betina,kalau berani kan cakap depan muka uh.takya nk tag2 ni semue.calling nina or whatso ever u call urself or should i say "pure talented,pure 110% born BITCH!!

anybody believes in the freedom of speech .....
"PUT UR HANDS UP IN THE AIR!!!"

21 June 2009, Sunday

2009-06-11T06:36:00.002-07:00

it had always been you

it had been long since i've updated..
lah, standard la aishah..
mane tau update! always bz wif her stuff! :D
i feel really bad for fin,,
i juiz hate it when i see someone hurt..
wat the hell.
ishk,!
pls fin, move on, i juz cnt bear seeing u like this..

btw, im a confused gurl..
i juz wanna be happy!
i cn pretend ..?
i've been doing tat for some time but im juz killing myself..

hahass,,
life have to go on, like it or not..

miss ur voice,
miss you,
miss the songs u sang ,
miss the sweetness in u,
i miss everything about u..

i cn neva forget u even if i tried..
my heart belongs to u, n only u..

SBSGH! bile outin?
i miss~~~
the slenger, SLEBENG!
miss sakinah po, BENGAP!
the biol one but never fails to make us smile n laugh like crazy, SKA!
n the gylerr one, GYLER!
sayang korang! :D
hmm, when will that ariff top up?
i might give up soon i guess..
for me, there's no more point of puting hope..

some ppl juz take things for grated
only regrets once loses them..
isn't it piontless?

Friday , 29 May 2009

2009-05-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

today. i cried alot.
its obvious that i was sad.
i didnt expect tis to happen uh..
i didnt wanna do tis but for our sake okay.. !
hw cn u be that selfish.. thought u would accept it but u said things tat were so hurtful tat i dun think i will eva love again..
oni god knows my pain..[ouch]
yea, i did hurt others, n i guess its dilemma..
i deserve it hah?..hais.
btw JET!... dun kip looking down on urself...! hee...

{kekasih gelapku} imy.
""""""kau, hadir dlm hidup ku saat ku berduka...
memberi ku cahaya dlm kegelapan,,
apakah ini cinta.. yang benar-benar cinta..."""""

i reali had a great dae smlm wif kinno! n shak! n sarah!
heee,, we went to safra yishun bt in the end, we tk jadi play bowling.
instead we slack abit!
heehe..
i was playing tis game wif kin! funfunfun! :D uno!
hee,, n i finally sawwwwwwwww ralph!!
n ehem , kwn dier, *cute*
:P
heeeeeeeee,,,,,,,,, n i was like,,, ohhhhhhh,,, so tats ralph!
not bad kin! but wasted la gerl!
hee. otw hme, i was the most craziest person! semua tk layan me :( so sad..
kinno oni lyn jap.. heheee...
heehe,, i said to kin,"AKU BUANG KAU KAT ROAD BARU TAU!"
hahasss! funny sia, her reaction..
fun distuirbing ppl!
then today raod run! woke up late !
lucky they waited for me!
so sorry you all!
heehe.. . ! me n kin walked all the way! heehe! semangat jalan la katakn!
heeeheee.! :P
i had fun....
but whenever i saw azizi, teringat psl dier.. ! ishk , so irritating...,kin, u noe rite!
haiya yai,,
stress la today!
think abt this n that.. i need a fren ..?
hahass,, but i juz prefer kiping everything to myself..

ps: the switness,that smile,in u was wat made you unique! ur image, ur face can never be erased from my memory,, NEVER!
those things you did for me, no one can ever be lyke you..
i never once regret loving you , sayang ..

i smile to hide my tears

2009-05-10T07:05:00.000-07:00

it was alwaes u .. n it had beed alwaes u..
everywhr i go, i see u..
i cnt get u out of my head..
everytime im juz waiting for ur kol....
is tis called love..?
deep down inside my heart, i think it is...
y cnt i stop thinking of u?
i feel, sad,confuse, .. but i hate showing it..
N***Z*M!!!
its u i miss!
y must it be me tat suffers?
but dun eva leave her for me...
u used to love me, u wanted me, but now we r not meant to be..
im sorry if i've ever made u cry or hurt u..
but i neva lied when i sae i love u, even though u cnt be mine..
maybea im not meant for u..
hais.
u seem to be so far away frm me, when i needed u the most..
but remember, i neva regretted once loving u..
neva..

b, i u :D

ps:tis post is for YOU..n the photo was edited for u actuali.. heee...

2009-04-29T02:30:00.000-07:00

{u once told me u love me}

Sunday, 19 April 2009

2009-04-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

i feel useless sometimes, but because of some people in my life are the reason im still going on..
dun give up baby! HEEHEHEHE,, weebo weebo!
mr.alien, im glad i have a fren like u.. hmm, sweetness lullabies huh?
hee!! cute!
u r the first who gave me lots of nickname..
heehe!
im alwaes tired, dunnoe why..
hmm,, n im crazy about the song, stuck with each other feat akon-shotelle!
ahhhhh!
baby, you gave me the strength to be strong..
btw some people are just giving me a hard time.
u wanna be good but u cnt stop saying negative stuff bout urself!.
look at the brighter sight of life ..

i met u, i liked u, but im afraid.
confused. sad. happy.
ART!!!! AHHHHH!!! hurry hurry! dateline is coming!
yesterday, the fast n the furious was great! very very exciting! heehe!
lovelovelove it!
zac efron! love hym too!
im wanna see the new harry potter mivie and the twilight movie! im not gonna miss it ;i hope! hee!
i am who i am.
i love what i do.
no regrets.
my mind tells me that u r not but y do my heart feels diff way..?

ps: nina,or wateva name biatch,get a life u idiolt! y? jelous aku bercinta?! seriously, its my pasal wat i wanna do! who r u to sae wat i cn or cannot do?! pompan gini, mcm SUNDAL! N PENGECUT! BIATCH!
i hata tis kinda ppl,
thnks nurul! tat gurl deserved it.
wat a COWARD!!!!!! love u nurul! ahhh! im so happy to haf a sis like you :D
syg nurul!

keep your nasty comments to yourself ^_^

Monday, 30 March 2009

2009-03-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

'I live for what i do.... i have no rules..
Well,maybea one;i try to remain true to my heart..
Wherever it may lead me,it's always open..
i live for the day,but i still have Big Dreams;D'

it just feels right

My Past

'I think you are sensational, spectacular and more, your luscious lips and charming smile, are the things i can't ignore..The sound of your alluring voice,the way you call my name,you can't begin to understand,how you set my heart aflame..Whenever you are in my arms, you give me a taste of heaven and still the march of time .. You are an inspiration, you're entrancing and divine, so fortunate am i, my love,to know that you are mine.hee<3'

he might be the only one for me,,, m i foolish? i dunnoe,,
BUT for now,i chill..
all i get is getting hurt, im sick of crying..
gimme a break people! i just wanna smile everyday and live my life to the fullest.. if i wanna be frens, then just stay as frens, not more than that.
its hard to let go the past, bryan helped me out , but halfway through he gaved up on me.
i juz wish someone could be there when im lonely, guess u forget all those promises u made.if u sais u'd be be tehhere n its a promise , pls be there..
dun make empty promises, n make me believe ur words even if its not true..
sadness and hatred grows.
anger filled my heart.
i lived, i cried, i laughed.
but yet, alone..
day by day, i become weak, physically.. i feel so tired so easily..
my effort that i've put for my COMMON TEST wasn't enough, i WILL work harder. wish me luck, but oh gosh, i feel so sick!.
if HE is ,
honest,
quite good-looking,
understanding,
have the sense of respect &
care,
quality of a good behaviour,
the way he love,
and mostly someone who brings joy and happiness to my life..,

then HE might be the perfect match for me..

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! i still love my life lah. :D
lets look at the brighter sight of life :D:D:D
think positive!.

27 February 2009

2009-02-26T22:08:00.000-08:00

hey hey!! oh my... i finally get to use the internet!
gosh.. it had been soo long since i've blog..
My life had been tough;idzuwan is not in my life no more but i juz cnt seem to erase his existence in my heart.. did i do the wrong thing?
i shoulndt have fallen coz its always in the end someone will get hurt..
im missing norizam.. gosh , 10 days he didnt kol me..
he didnt even wish me on my SWEET 16 birthday!! {im 16 already baby!!!}
hais, 10 days seems like 10 years..
now it will be days,, n days will turn to months,, n that month will turn to years,,.
Soon he wont realise it that it is too late already..
He's lucky that i'm patient, i at least cn wait, but he juz simply take things for granted.
im so glad that at least that i have my special fren who truly understands me..
im grateful to have what i have now..,
Life changes fast..
Life changes in the instant..

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..

i wanna make a promise to myself that from today on wards, i will only look at the bright side of life,, n im gonna keep that sadness right deep into my heart until i feel that it dosent exist anymore, coz life's too short to be sad all the time ppl !

what i learn is to appreciate what i have now, n never ask for anything more..

{first you drew henna on my hand;love at first sight :D then, you held my hand and you never wanted to let go.. You kissed my cheeks in the most chicky n sweet manner and you apparently drew me a cute teddy bear ! You even composed a lovely song about us;putri[tats wat u call me].. hee ;D every moment i spent with you was so precious.. My life was full of your sweet,sweet love.. You made my sadness dissapear even though my past was terrible.. im leaving my past behing,, ther's no turning back.. No more tears shall i shed even if the pain is too hard to bear;i'll stay strong..
HAPPINESS N JOY! :)

i love my friends,, :D:D
i'll update soon ppl ! bye!

i u syg ! :D

30 August 2008, Sunday

2008-08-30T02:36:00.000-07:00

heyhey! i miss kinny n sarah mon alot! hahss,, they went to australia yesterdae,, luckily i managed 2 send them ! ahhh,, hope they r alrite n safe at there.. :D:D
sarah n kin, dun cry kae,, u'll be back soon rite?
hahass.. oh my,, puasa coming oreadi,, hmmm,, i think i wanna BERTAUBAT coz i've done so many mistakes in my life,, ish .. how i wish i could erase tat away,, well i guess im not a reali good person after all..
aniwaes,, to all teachers in s'pore,,
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
be yourself dae was the most fun dae i eva had ! :D
me, lira, kin, sarah, n atikah took lots n lots of pictures !! ahh,, we took it wif lots of teacher's n ppl too,, that is the dae i'll remember my whole life ! :)

hey atikah, PORDA!! hahass..

after tat,, me, dayang, narimah , faizah n natassha went to all our primary sch,, we had lots of fun meeting our pri sch frens.. aniwaes,, i had fun especially wif my beloved gyler , FAIZAH! :D:

okae,, i guess i gtg now soo,, i'll update soon kae ppl..

iMISSthemALOT!
IMjuzOVERPROTECTED..
loveYA !

Sunday, 17 August 2008

2008-08-16T18:25:00.000-07:00

for once i juz wanna make the rite decisions bt y cnt i semm to juz make a rite 1?
why ppl dun understand?????
u used to call me a 'KEJAM' n 'JAHAT' gurl,,those words hunt me like crazy ,, . but i try to juz pretend everytime im wif my frens,,

aniwaes,, juz leave me alone pls ! i did nothing much yesterdae,, i did not even finish my hw, so i guess i'll be doing my hw ltr, ish! im so freakin stress,, so many promblem in so little time, i need a break !

bahbah! i guess im alrite, heyehey,, guess wat,, im already starting to update my blog,,
hope i'll update soon .. hmmm,, i gtg,, be bck soon,, dada ! :D:D:D

myHEARTburnsINTOemptiness

Saturday, 16 August 2008

2008-08-15T22:41:00.000-07:00

hey everyone ! (:
yesterday's training was quite a irritating one for me.. everything was okay until the match time, i was trying my best not to bring down the team's moral bt i juz cnt control my anger.. actually i was reali tired yesterdae coz i did not haf enough rest the dae b4 yesterdae,, so when im tired i get angry real fast sooo,, sori to all VOLLEYBALLERS bout yeasterdae.. . aniwaes,, its was quite a sad thing tat KINNY did not come yesterdae.. i reali hope u're beta now,, beta rest noe ! (: hahs,,, aniwaes,, as usual,, today i have a hard time waking up coz of yesterdae's training,,my muscle n backbone os reali pain,, ish !,,, i dun think i'll be goin out 2dae so i'll juz start studying ltr..

ohh my,, i miss aqilah so much ! it had been so long since we meet up.. i reali hope 2 c u soon,, plus i oso wanna apologise to SOMEONE bout yesterdae,, hope u're not mad at me oreadi,, yup2 let bygonesBEbygone,,
like kin said too,, im still sori bout wat i did to you,, i reali feel guilty of wat i've done,, i noe u forgive me oreadi bt i juz cnt seem to forgive myself.. i reali didnt mean to hurt u in any way.. n plus i realised tat SHE(not kin) haf changed alot,, she is now a much more different person than last time,, i juz miss the ols HER but like my mum use 2 sae, ppl change,, n now i noe wat does she mean by ppls change,,,

there's neva one nite tat i cn slp in peace ,,my hati slalu tk tenteram,, n there's neva even one nite tat i will not shed a tear.. tis is all bcoz of those stupid jerks who juz take my love for granted.. nobody will understand tis pain, oni i do,, y does tis haf to happen to me?.. sometimes i juz wanna be all alone by myself n neva wanna fall in love again,, coz love juz hurts me alot.. well,, i guess i've got to be going now,,
cnt wait for tomorrow coz i'll be meeting kin n others ,, ! yeah !.. c y'all tomorrow,, take care,, tatas !

WHYcntUjuzGIVEupONme?
whyDOuLOVEmeSOmuch?
ISurLOVEtrueORjuzAlie?

NEW POSTS!

2008-07-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

heyhey,, i dunnoe wat 2 sae.. there's so many things i wanna sae but i juz dunnoe whr to start,, hmmm,, i'll sart wif sch.. guess wat? my sch is okay:D,, i spent many lonely n recess time alone coz i juz wanna be alone 4 a while.. . im reali loving a maths noww. ((: sometimes i reali hate my dad ! i juz feel like running away frm my hse or wat,, hais.. . i sometimes wish tat i cn juz live happily ! i sometimes smile n laugh but deep down, the pain is still there.. its not understable n it cnt juz fade away ,, n it juz feel like a needle is piercing through my heart everytime i think bout those sweet n bad memories when we had together.. i juz wanna let the past be the past... some1 new came into my life, he loved me so much but im trying hard to noe hym first then fall in love bcoz im reali afraid tat he'll hurt me like THOSE guys.. he even did stupid stuff juz to get my attention.. im totally destroyed in love,, still healing but it takes time,, frens?.. oh,, i miss them so much,, those moments we had together.. i juz wish everything was like last time.. . n im sori again if i have hurt u in any way,, i didnt mean to do wat i did.. i reali hope we cn be like last time
sometimes i think guys are jerks. rite? hmm,, guess i'll be updating soon enough.. . hope to do well in my a mathe test 2morrow ! :D:D

n to all my frens,, especially SBSGH, u r not 4gotten n i will neva forget you.. thnks 4 everything.. ,

uONCEtoldMEtatYOUloveME
imAFRAIDtoLOVEagainBUTareYOUtheONEforME?

2008-05-09T10:45:00.000-07:00

he's hot!!

he's cute!!

i love DAVID COOK and DAVID ARCHULETA!!!!

(:

Thursday, 8 May 2008

2008-05-08T12:30:00.000-07:00

We have to live life to the fullest..
For me,, i guess everydae is a newdae..

tis week i have been quite quiet.. i dunnoe y..
i havent been feeling tat hyper..
aniwaes its exam period so must study hard! :PP
i dunnoe bt it seems tat everything is not going as wat i expected..

aniwaes i cnt wait until after finish exam!!

on mon,, i had art n sci paper,,
OMG!! i think im gonna fail my chem,, aniwaes,, after the exam,,
i gomkn first,,
then we still have anothe 1hour n30 min,, so i n my kwn sejati went 2 the library n i helped kinn0 finish up her art work...
(gurl u reali need 2 practice more!)

then we had our 3 hours art exam,,
ish lucky i went to the toilet,, if not my butt willreali hurt..

2dae was a little bit weird dae bcoz i woke up @ 6 2dae!! wat a miracle..
i went 2 sch early 2dae n i took my time 2 go 2 sch..
2dae was geog paper,, i reali hope i pass seh coz i didnt reali study yesterdae coz i was too tired.. after exam was over,,
i went to enterprise class 2 wait 4 kin,, then when she came,,she was finding 4 amirul.. the next thing i did was i said i dunnoe n juz walk off frm there n went hme,, i reali dunnoe wat made me did tat bt ijuz went hme,, hais,, as usual, i bought fish burger first then i went hme,, my bro made my dae!! (:
hehe ,, he was veri nyce to me,, bt sad 2 sae now he's stress bout tat freakin stoopid irritating gurl,, urgh! y cnt she juz leave my bro alone!! wats wrong wif her ! i hate her seh.. ish!
i reali wanna help my bro bt i dunnoe hw.. hais..
aniwaes cheer up kay bro,, rmbr im alwaes here 4 u ((:

n HAPI 15TH BIrTHDAY KHAIRI!! ((:
at last some1 15 yrs old oreadi,, n hope u enjoy ur dae 2 the fullest..

hope i get 2 update soon,, hmm kays gtg now,, tatas.. :PP

imLOSTinLOVE'SwhisperingSOUNDS
mayOURfrenshipLAST

Wednesday, 07 May 2008

2008-05-07T16:25:00.000-07:00

its all bout you..

its all bout me

imTRAPPEDinMYworldOFdarkness

Saturday, 29 March 2008

2008-03-29T16:50:00.000-07:00

yesterday was an ok dae..
i went 2 sch like normal n all..
during class time, it was quite fun coz i get 2 talk 2 sook yee n my other classmates..
i had pe wif my kwn sejati!!
i was shock coz our pe dae is on the same dae.. so we will surely have fun havin pe lessons 2gether.. .
anyway after sch,, i went to my kwn sejati's place,, i help hertied her hair,,
she was looking soooo cute.. .
then i had lunch @ her place.. .
thnks kin! the maggi goreng was nyce.. .
after that we met lira n amira.. .
then all of us went to my place.. coz i need 2 change n all..
we attende the honours dae @ evg sec ard 3..
we went there as we r the student audience..
the honours was quite boring,,
........ i went there actually 4 the food bt all they gave us was juz burger!!

haiyo yo,, so after the show,, i n kin went to the 911 bus-stop 2 wait 4 her bestFREN,shk n sarah..

actually wat im feeling about our friendship is that its like drifting apart..
it is as though im like nobody 2 u anymore..
erm,, i juz feel like that a little bit..
i juz think tat this frenship wont reali like last.. .
n soon maybea we wont be like last time like hw we used 2 be,,
this happens bcoz of the choices u make..
in life, frens come n go.. some juz come n stay 4ever,, some juz goo..
so which fren u wan me 2 be..
u r the fren tat have been alwaes there 4 me n i neva wanna our frenship 2 juz drift apart..
bt hais,, i dunnoe larhs..
i juz feel tat im losin everything rite now,, im lonely, i reali need a fren..
im like in this dark2 place where the is no one else except i,me n myself...

weird bt true..
i've lost everything,,
ppl like 2 take things 4 granted n once they lose tat thing, they will regret 4ever..
frens r still there,, bt my kwn sejati??.. i juz dunnoe,, i guess we r reali drifting apart.. )):
its reali sad bt maybea its my destiny 2 be in this situation..

LEAVEmeALONE
itsGONNAbeOVERsoon

Tuesday, 25 March 2008

2008-03-25T05:13:00.000-07:00

hey hey !!! im back!! shaa is in the house!!
woohhoo...hehe..,,
anyway bout the past blog,, bout the bf thingi,,
it was a total crap.....omg!! when i read it back,,i cnt believe it was so s.t.u.p.i.d.,,
hehehe,, anyway,, enjoy the song aites... :PP

iCANliveWITHOUTyou

about me..

2008-03-17T22:36:00.001-07:00

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Monday, 18 February 2008

2008-02-18T04:07:00.000-08:00

(i've never regretted lovin you)

heyhey!! finally im updating again..
yeah!! anyway,, i dun reali have the mood to blog rite now,,
bt well,, nothing to do..
sooo,, let me start from fridae..
OMG!!! it was like a fun dae.. after sch me n kin went 2 fetch sars coz she didnt come to sch 2dae as she was sick..
poor u.. hehe,, anyway,, she said she was ok oreadi so i n kin fetched her frm sembawang mrt,, she was damn lambat seh..
hehe,,, not so ar.. . anyway,, on tat dae kin wanted 2 celebrate my burfdae in advance coz on my burfdae itself(which is 2morrow!! wee,, yeah!! ((: ) hae common test,, so have no time.. . anyway i had fun on tat dae coz kin belanja-ed me movie n makan..
thnk u kin!! n sars!! i love korang!!
the movie was ps i love you,,
it was such a nice movie!! the couple looks veri sweet 2gether...

on saturdae,,, it was the most damn sad n worst dae ever..
it was the dae when i broke up wif hym..
it all started when i was missing hym,, so i msg-ed hym in the morning,,
then he didnt reply.. so it was ok,, then i msg-ed hym again ard 1++.
i told hym wat he was doing n all,, n it has been quite a long time since he said tat he loves me..
then i asked a quite s.t.u.p.i.d. question..
i asked hym if he still love me or not..
@ first he didnt reply me,,
then i msg hym,, n i sae,, isit yes or no??
then he said no..
i thought he was juz jk..
bt when i ask hym if he was serious,, he said he was.
tat was when tears suddenly started rolling out frm my eyes,, down my cheecks..
then i ask 4 break, he said ok,,
then i replied,, i guess u deserve a much beta gurl than me,, bye.
then i straight away cry so hard..
seriously,, i've neva cried so badly after soo long..
hais, tat was the worst dae of my life..
i thought i cn be hapi when im wif hym,,
i gave wat he wanted,,n tis is wat i get..
n i cried the whole dae.. hais.. stupid guy!! i hate hym!!..

i guess 4 now,, i'll juz stay single 4 a while..
i think i like had enough of tis bullshit!!
its like a needle piercing through my heart,,
tats the pain im feeling..
it will take time to heal,, i will take time to move on..
i loved hym so badly n hais..
wateva,,
i juz feel like crying now.. :'(
wat i believe,, is tat,, my love story wif has ended.. bt in life,, every end has a new beginning..
so i'll slowly move on,, n i guess,, im better without hym,, !!

anyway,, thnk u kin n shak,,
they came 2 my home yesterdae nite to cheer me up..
thnk u korang,, i love korang so the veri much!!
me syg my kawan sejati n shak ku!!! ((:
anyway,, life is like tis,, live it,, love it,, get over it.. :PP
2dae common test!! ahhh!! so the tiring,, haiyo yo..
i cnt reali concentrate coz i kip thinkin bout hym,,
hais,, luckily i didnt cry juz now during the common test,,
i was sooooo,,, hais..
anyway 2morrow's my burdae!! im so hapi..
bt yet im trying my best to hide my feelings,,.. fake smiles again..
i dun wanna ruin my dae 2morrow..!!
i'll try to be strong.. .

(y did u do tis to me? u were like my everything.. i juz cnt move on yet.. i hate u bt i love u too.. hope you'll be hapi wif another gurl, i wish u gd luck.)

?why does my heart suffer?
no matter how hard we grab on something,,
we'll still lose it... .
~~tis is the sadness of my heart~~

Sunday, 20 January 2008

2008-01-20T20:25:00.000-08:00

i love this song,,!!! yeah!!!

And when you say you love me do you mean it, baby when you hold me do you feel it? Should I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time to hear you say you love me like you mean it, baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All i wanna do is make you mine,, I've been hurt way too many times..
yeah!!

cool,, if i was invisible.. . tioa.. .

heyhey,, finally i updated my blog,,.. .
anyway 2dae is quite like a normal dae,,, when i woke up,, nobody was @ home except for my father... he was sleeping,, my mum went to my adik's silat seni competition,, gd luck guyszz,,, then after i wake up.,,,,, i brush my teeth n all,, then i started doing my hw,,.. . e maths,, ard 1++,, i went to the interchange to fetch my grandmother (my father's mother),, coz she's staying @ my home 2dae,, then we went to cp to buy some groceries,,.. when i reached,, i use the comp for a while,,
tats when i found out bout wat happened to my kwn sejati,, haiyo,,
he is such a ~!@#$%^&*..,,, urgh!!!,, i guess he's juz not meant for u..,, time flies,, n ppl juz change.. . anyway,, dun worry aites,, u still haf SBSGH,, n many more of ur frens.. . n i hope tat the old kin is still exist.. . ((:
n kin,, aku masih syg kau,, kwn sejati ku!!!

then ard 4++,, i helped my grandmother to cook,, she cook some dish,, n guess wat i made?? i made chappati!!!!(er,, i dunnoe hw 2 spell..)anyway,, it was fun seh!! weeee,,, :PP
anyway,, we lost to punggol on thurs.. it was so ,,hais,, no comments..
bt i was glad tat i spike nyce2.. bt to ALL the players,, im sori for the mistakes tat i had done,, im reali sori,, haiyoyo... n,, guess who called me yesterdae?? anand!!! OMG!!! i was damn shock seh.. i didnt realize tat he would call me,,, then we talked about life n all... n he sae tat he misses.. hmmm,, my heart like CAIR-ing... bt the sad thing is tat he's attach,, yesterdae.. he told me bout the past memories when we were together... n wateva i have forgotten,, i remembered it again,, i was abit frus coz those memories which i have been trying to forget for the past few months,, in a sec,, everything came back to my mind,, like i sae,, those love,, memories,, n my past,, cn neva be replace.,, n cn neva be forgotten..^^

but,,, im trying my best to love my syg more than anand... hais,, tis month like alot of ppl breaking up,, being seperated,, haiyoyo,.,,,
n im reali missing my babyboi.. hahaks,,
n i use to ask myself,, what did i eva do to deserve all tis?? im still searching for the ans,, isit bcoz of wat i did,,?? or isit bcoz of wat i didnt do??
nvm,, somewhere,, somehow,, i will definately find the answer,, . . .
anyway,, to,, all my beloved kwn sejati ku,,my frens,, SBSGH n hym,, i love yall!!! yeah!! ((: n rmbr play less study hard.. okok... gotta go,, buhbye =)

youGOTmeGOINGcrazy
IwillWAITforYOU
imMISSINGyouSObadly

Sunday, 13 Jnuary 2008

2008-01-13T11:25:00.001-08:00

Second week of schhas already ended =))
Wow,, time juz flies so fast.. . :P
Last week,, we had the sec 1 orientation thingi,
On fri, 4JAN08, we,, Joanna,, Sarah,, Zi Xin,, Yui Ling and me skipped the whole dae lesson coz
we had to do the volleyball booth for the sec 1 to sign up.. . It was fun doing it wif them,,
weeee,, (: We at least had 30+ sec 1 to sign up..,, On tat daeitself,, i was abit clumsy.. .
What happened was that KENDRICK took my wallet then I chased after hym la,, juz to get back my wallet,,..
Haiyo yo,, the bad luck thing tat happened was I tripped over his leg,, and i injured my knee,, elbow and hand.. .
The more sway thing happen was,, when I fell,,, there were rugby boys there,, i was like "OMG!! Sway nyer.. ."..
urgh!!,, tats the most embarrasing moment in my life...!!! Ahhhhhh!! :X anyway everything else went well,,...
The next dae,, On Sat,, 15JAN08,, we had another sec 1 orientation too,,... . I came late coz i overslept as i was DAMN tired.. :^
When i reached sch, almost all the sec 2 came to help.. . they reali helped alot,, :))
Then i head frm kin tat fadora wanted to come so we waited for her at the sch bus-stop..,,
while waiting,, i helped kin wif her shoe laces.. . then slowly fadora came,, n we brought her into the sch... .
The weather was damn hot sia,,.. . anyway,, afta the orientation,, we packed up.. .
them,, i,, kin,, sarah,, shak,, n fadora went to toa payoh to eat our lunch.. . after tat we went
to esplanade.. .we went to the rooftop there,,.. . wow it was nice,, i was like shouting abit to release my stress,,
YEAH!!! cool man,, hehe,, anyway hmmmmmm,,,, when it was gonna rain,, we went to library there,,
it was super cold!! @ there kin was abit bz finding for shakespere's books wif saah's help.. .
after tat i and sarah went crazy!! we were like the noisiest ppl in the library,,
coz we were mostly laughing at each other,, n so called 'rehearsing the shakesphere's script'...
It was veri fun doing it wif her,, then i teman shak photocopy her music thingi.. .
fun la pressing the button,, hehehe (+ anyway after tat we took bus home,, it was bcoz of me la!!
my ez-link card was like $0,, they are the best!! thnks babes,, i love u gurls!!!

in the bus i n sarah were n like FREAKOS!! coz we were laughing,, hearing songs n doing 'silent karaoke'..
hahaxs,, then we were like dancing on the chair n all n all,, we have gone crazy!!!! :PP
When we reached the interchange,, we went to CP to teman in buy her watch,, we ate ice-cream,, n we jln2 there too,,
then after tat we wanted to go home so we did all our hand shakes outside CP.. . hehehe,, tat was like a great dae,,
i reali had fun.. .
On tues,, 8JAN08,, on my 2nd mth ani,, i thought WE could meet but,,SOMEONE couldnt make it..
hais,, nvm la,, its ok,, but it was abit sad la when he didnt even wish me,
i was waiting,, n waiting,, n waiting.. .
Then the next dae on wed,, sch was ok,, then i had training,, b4 training,, in,, ym,, n i went to 883 to eat PRATA!!
anyway training was damn boring,, HAiss,, it was the sec 1 selection dae,, then we had
to teach them the basic skills of volleyball,.. .
Then after a while,, kin was seeing the soccer match,, i joined her,, we were finding fot hot guys n we were like ahhhh!!!
hehehe,,, we saw 1,, erm i think his name was Saiful.. .
So on thur,, 10JAN08,, Afta sch i stay back to help out on the sch decoration,,.. .
anyway when i came home,, i was damn tired,, la seh.. . hais but then i eat my lunch n then i did my hw.. .
he called,, n tats when he finally wished me,,,,he was actually waiting 4 me to wish hym n i was waiting for hym to wish mw,,..
niwaes,, i'll juz take it as he didnt 4get,,

On fri,, during volley training,, we had a quite tough training,, My whole body was like aching.. .
Haiyo yo =*

And kin n lira,, sori i cnt make it on sat,, im reali sori,, (:

N SOMEONE is falling for tat hot manje seh.. .
Eh,, jage2 tau,, kalau jatuh,, jatuh sendiri tau,, JATUH CINTA!!'
hehehe,, huahuahua,, (my evil laugh) hahxs...
Well,, readers,, dun 4get 2 leave ur comments after u read aites,,

n lastly,, to SBSGH,, SOMEONE,, n to all my close frens,,
i love u!!! YEAH!! ((:

iTHINKitsNOTtimeFORmeTOmoveON

Sunday, 16 December 2007

2007-12-16T19:25:00.000-08:00

todae's 16 dec!!my parent's 18th anniversary..,, hehe,,hapi annivesary!! anyway 2morrow's my father's birthdae.. .!! my life is great now,,.. everydae is like a new dae.. . but sometimes the past juz kip coming back..

SCHOOL
im so excited,, next year im sec 3 oreadi,,.. soo fast.. . time reali fly,, damn fast. Next year im going to 3 Commitment :D.. yeah!! 3 commitment rox!! :P anyway the subject i got was A MATHS, geography, combined sci(physics n chemistry) n ART!! im veri hapi wif the subjects i get,,.. . anyway volleyball training have been reali tough coz we r training 4 next year's north zone competiton!! n tis wed or fri we r having a friendly match,, urgh,, im so scared :(.. anyway,, tis time we all must train reali hard coz i reali wanna a medal.. . even if we didnt get,, i will still be hapi tat we have played our best for the school.. we didnt reali train on fridae coz coach was reali angry as not all of us came on time for the training so tomorrow we must reach early!! tonite i'll call the volley members to remind them.. . ((:
anyway,, i still need 2 finish up my hw,, haiyo yo.. stress la.. . =! so many things to do,, so little time.. . anyway,, im deciding to start doing my revision,, for next year.. . must do notes!! must study!!..
bt im still deciding if i wanna go to JC or POLY.. juz so confuse rite rite,, coz there is so many things in my head.. .

FRIENDS
SBSGH is the best!! i reali love it,, kk let me intro to u SBSGH,,,... first, it started when me,, sakinah,, shakila,, n faizah went to vivo city together coz we wanted to jln2 to enjoy ourselves.. . it was on 16 October 2007.. . tat was the dae i cn NEVER 4get bcoz tat was the greatest dae on my entire life.. . then we decided to create a group named RHGS,, rep,, hollywood,, gyler,, ska.. . bcoz we wanted to create a friendship,, a close one,, n to be friends forever.. . things sometimes get tough but we worked it out together,, then one dae,, sarah came into the picture.. . we made her one of our members then RHGS became SBSGH!! we started a whole new friendship n all.. . tat was another great dae!! ((: SBSGH,, slebeng,,bengap,,ska,,gyler,,hollywood.. . i will never regret having such great frens like kin, sarah, shak, faizah coz there r alwaes there when i reali need someone.. . n i will also never regret having frens like my volleyball frens,, nurul,,sec sch frens,, pri sch frens,, n im neva 4getting AQILAH!! my best fren!! I LOVE ALL MY FRENS!!! SO MUCH!! hehe.. . :P

ME AND MY SYG
first i thought he will make me happy n 4get bout my past,, bt then,, i cnt believe tat he could make me cry.. . yesterdae nite, he was damn harsh on me.. . its juz bcoz of some misunderstanding,, hais,, he is making things even more worst.. . i need a break!! i reali need a time-out!! haiyo yo :( sometimes it juz makes me wonder if i had made a right choice.. . thinking tat he was the one for me.. . i dunnoe la.. ,, bt i had neva cried so hard in a long time b4.. . the most terrible thing happened is when he LIED 2 me.. i dunnoe if i can still trust hym or not,, .. . i feeling so STRESS!!! but all he can sae is->>, sori.. so pathetic.. bt i have to admit it,, maybea i dun deserve his love.. .
n maybea im not good enough for hym.. well,, i juz have to stop stressing myself so much n juz enjoy everydae of my life.. . coz we will neva noe wat will happen 2morrow rite.. .

guess wat,, no matter wat he did to me,, no matter wat,, deep deep in my heart, i still love hym.. . so there it is,, my story bout my life.. . n i've learnt something that is to never regret,, .. ..... forgive n forget.... :))

my world is
dark without you..
i miss you.. .

Saturday, 15 December 2007

2007-12-15T04:16:00.000-08:00

hey hey!! it have been sooooooooooo damn long i didnt updated my blog...
im soooooooo sori 2 my readers. ..
anyway alot of stuff have changed oredi.. .
me n anand are no more oreadi,, bt now i have someone else,, avjit!! i love hym so damn much,, .. . we r together 4 at least 1 mth 7 daes.. .
abt hym,,,, erm,, he's cute,, he makes me hapi bt he makes me cry 2.. .,,,
he's loving,, caring,, n many more la.. .
hais,, im reali trying to move on,, bt i think now i have 100%moved on oreadi,, yeah!! im so glad.. .
another thing i have SBSGH by my side when i need them,,i love them,,...!!! frens 4eva!! n i still love volleyball!!!!

anyway i'll update soon too kk,,..:P :D
i love my syg!!!

Tuesday, 14 August 2007

2007-08-14T19:33:00.000-07:00

hais........... im like,, merane.. stupid stupid life.. cnt i juz be happy??? im waiting,, n waiting,, n waiting,, bt dunnoe hw long more cn wait.. . i cnt sleep last nite coz i was thinking though my memories wif hym.. it was,, woooooowww,, nyce... i love those moments.. then now, i realised,, when i think bout those memories,, the pic of his face like stuck in head.. til i dream bout hym,,, i lv hym alot larhs... i oso think again,, i oso realise,, i think some of the things i did is the 1 tat affect my relation.. i was usually alwaes blaming hym..,, bt i think is bcoz of me 2.. (if i tell ANYBODY oso,, like i sae,, NOBODY will understand).. bt when i sae i dun care,, maybea i still care.. i dunnoe la..

2dae was fun sia..!! afta sch,, me, kin n khairi,, jln2 ard coz naim wanna go hme to take smt.. then we decided 2 fetch naim,, while walking,, khairi keep pulling my bag! haiyo yo.. i redy tired, then he still pull... bt when naim came,, while walkin,, kin was tired.. then khairi keep pulling my bag so i let it go then i carry kin's bag.. afta tat i ask khairi carry my bag,, bt i kesian hym sia.. my bag already heavy then he still anna carry... i ask hym 2 gimme me back my bag, i carry bt he still wanna carry soo...nvm la then... niwaes... fun la seh,, when hang out wif them.. niwaes i kept quite a while juz now coz first of all i was thinking if i saw my primary sch frens at admiralty juz now,, secondly i saw two cute couples juz now then i teringat bout hym,,, hais.. those moments when we are together.. i think tis is juz the beginning.. i still have a long way 2 go so beta concentrate on my studies more.. kk la... i hope tat everything is back 2 normal,, i guess... kk gtg,, my mum's coming hme.. c ya tata.. enjoy reading!! ((: :)) n i love hym alot!!

<3~~~aishah loves anand~~~<3
love love love,, hehehe,, love is in the air!! woooohhooooo!! hahaks.. <:

Saturday, 11 August 2007

2007-08-11T00:25:00.000-07:00

its all bout me!!!
nn,,,, i miss you.. hais.

Tuesday, 31 July 2007

2007-07-31T20:05:00.000-07:00

there have been alot of things going on in my life...
i juz wanna try 2 bear wif it but i dunnoe la..
first of all,, its bout VOLLEYBALL!!
i have tis weird feeling, like dissapointment feeling, when ALOT of ppl did not come for training during one of the days,,, but i think afta ms gan lecture them then they went 4 training coz i think kena force or wat afta her lecturing.. hais..
first of all those PT coach ask we all to do its bcoz we need it,, if we are VERY good then he will nt ask we all 2 do those duck walks n all,, i dun wanna think tat im good coz i noe IM NOT.. n i juz wanna be beta then juz waste my effort down the drain,,.. i dun wanna regret 2 juz let all my hard effort down the drain... . bout my volleyballers,, 2 some of them im juz dissapointed bt im happy tat some of them tried n i cn reali see their effort.. im nt saying like tat coz i noe im NOT good bt i juz wanna them 2 realise tat they are proving me right.. TRY CHALLENGING UR LIMITS.. n use ur time wisely 4 studies n training.. i juz dun wan 2 see everything juz gone like tat.. cn it be like the last time??
hais,, .. so bout ym,, i wasnt dissapointed at her,, bt oni abit bt she prove me wrong,, i thought she will nt improve n juz drop out of volley bt she prove me wrong.. she improved ALOT.... tats the spirit i wanna see.. n now kin is slacking .. hais.. i dunnoe y?? i reali dun?? izzit bcoz of volley?? actually i dun get it.. im abit bt i think im veri dissapointed in her... sometimes i dunnoe y ppl think bout themselves instead of the team,, haiyooooo0000.... bt now i cn sae tat so0o yee is much more better then kin,, kin had been in volley since sec 1 bt sook yee has been in volley in the mid year like tat,, bt she is now better than kin n she also improved alot..
sometimes these words are so damn true-->> When you fight, fight like a lion.. If you get hurt, fight like a wounded lion.. .THE ONLY LOSERS IN THIS WORLD ARE THE QUITTERS.. believe me,, its true.. rmb DUN EVA GIVE UP COZ U WILL END UP REGRETTING..
anyway.. he changed..!! everything like went back 2 normal,, i guess??
niwaes,, i had enough telling anybody bout my life coz WHO CARES??? its oni me! i cn oni tell it 2 myself.. someone is like berubah-ing.. i dunnoe y.. its hard 2 handle things which ppl dunt noe hw difficult 2 handle it.. life's been tough.. sometimes,, things tat i wants tell n express 2 someone,, its hard.. they dun care n will sometimes give comments which hurt me alot in the inside,, bt i dun wanna tell them coz they will think they are evrytime RITE.. tats wat i hate,, sometimes things tat tat they sae tat its nt true n nt rite bt... sometimes they like discouraging me 2..
i dunn wanna tell them coz i dun wanna tell them the truth until they find it out themselves... anyway im over it,, im so damn over those things tat make my life miserable.. . im juz trying 2 see the bright sight of life,, if there is in my life?
niwaes,, on fridae im meeting hym,, i mish hym!!! hope he will be there n he shuld be.. ily syg!! 143 syg!! hehe,, i crazy bout hym,,,,,, hehe.. ((:
lols... bt i think tat i have 2 go through difficulties in life no matter wat i do n i will never give up.. so hope tat the readers noe wat i have been going through in my life.. so0o0o,, enjoy reading.. kk.. buhbye~~~~

~~~~~~

2007-07-21T05:55:00.001-07:00

Get your own Poll!

2007-07-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Life was all bout e sake of livin.
Till e moment i met u.
ur my everything.
Darling, i really lurve u.
u noe i do.
Ur the one.
who gave me the feelin ive nv had.
Please i beg euu.
dun eva tell mi gdbye.
dun eva break my heart.
dun eva leave mi.
//I LURVE U//

I think its fading away,, im trying to keep my love for u strong but.. .,,, Im scared,, I reali m..
nobody’s there when I need them.. not dun even my frens coz they r too bz wif their own life n problems,,, nobody cares coz now im on my own..
life’s unfair,, I noe.. . nobody’s there when I cry or when I reaaaaaaaalllllllllliiiiiiiii need them.. its hard 2 survive...
my tears can neva stop dripping out of my eyes... sometimes I feel so stupid..
I have lots of problem but I didn’t wanna share it wif anyone coz y would they even wanna care if I have a problem... they gt their own problem so0o..,, WATEVA LA!!
im so sick n tired of my stupid idiolt life!! but I will neva get sick n tired of volleyball..
I dunnoe y but I loooove volley n HYM...
im trying to keep it strong n look at the bright of life.. sometimes u get what u wan,, sometimes u dun.. during the training when I cried,, the reason I cried was because I thought I failed what I wanted to acieve,, my spiking n all sux!! i nearly gave up but I told myself not to coz giving up is a wrong thing to do...this songs explain part of my life,, juz listen to it n I think u will understand..

Friday, 6 July 2007

2007-07-06T22:57:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP is a promise made in the heart, unbreakable by distance, unchangeable by time..."

today was the worst day of my life!! volleyball training today was damn tough.. OMG!! we kena punished until most of us cried.. i cried coz i cannot tahan,, the pressure..
hais.. . anyway today is oso a bad luck day,, first kin,, went out wif khairi n all,, thinking tat she has forgotten redy bt everything came back,, shak told her those stuff all n when i called her today,, she was,, :'(
when i called her,, n hear hr crying,, i couldnt tahan coz i cnt stand seeing her being hurt like tat..
i think she was confused,, i reali cnt hearing her cry n all bcoz of tat stupid GUY..
haiyo yo..........
n today,, everything came back,, all my past memories tat i have forgotten long ago came back.. it was the worst thing eva.....................
it has been like weeks,, nearly mths,, i haven met hym or talked 2 hym on the phone.. i miss hym alot!! i cnt take tis lonliness,,, anyway... i cnt believe tat i suspected tat HE likes me.. i dunnoe liao... i dunnoe y bt i wanna find out the truth actually... hais,,, isit possible tat i fell for hym?????
no la i dun think so la.. IM ATT REdy!! hehe.. niwaes,,, life is difficult!

Sunday, 1 July 2007

2007-07-01T14:30:00.000-07:00

In love,, ithere are a alot of problems..
That i gurantee you bt the only 2 solve it to
find out the truth. Nutting bt the truth..
There will als0 be lots of misunderstanding,
thats wat i learnt, so we must understand
one another and trust each other in order
for someone's relationship to last. During
these days,, i thought a lot..
It has been nearly 3-4 weeks i haven meet hym
bcoz both of us r busy.. hais''
I missed hym alot,, i missed his voice,,
i missed those moments in the past when we
were together.. ad i mostly missed the ****es we had.
It was quite difficult for me to bear with this
lonliness but it is reali killing me..
Letting u go wasnt wat i want bt it is reali hard 2 find a replacement..
I've seen guts these daes n they cn neva replace u,,..
the past was the past,, I've forgiven you redyy..
Like you say, its either i will never love you or my love will fade away..
guess wat?? tat wasnt rite..
Nobody noe hw it feels,,,,,,,, maybea to the ppl out there,
im juz wasting my time but i will neva regret wat decisions i've decided and the difficulties i will have 2 go through..
The past is now over.. i cn neva do anything 2 change my past..
I think i wanna start anew,, i will 4get my horrible past...
he is changing,, i cn see it,, feel it 2..
n my love for hym is still STRONG!!
hehe.. nutting ppl sae or do cn change my love for hym,,
so.. love me or hate me..
either way u're still
thinking of me... .
niwaes sori 4 my late updation of my blog.. ;)

Wednesday, 20 June 2007

2007-06-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

i used cry every single day frm the day he told me one bad news...
frm that day onwards i slowly lost my trust on hym..
4 that moment i thought i m gonna lost everything n my love for hym was wasted..
then i sacrificed,, i hold on 2 hym trying 2 give hym a second chance..
n he once told me that he will change for good.,, but juz dun dissapoint me..
it was hard to believe wat i had gone true bt i dun wan tis thing
that i had gone true happen to anyone coz,, i dun think they cn bear it..
sumone who reali had been there 4 me was KINZIE!!
she was the bestest fren that anyone who eva wanted..
she like noe what i feel in the inner part..
everything she predicted bout me was true!!
thats wat i couldnt believe..
its like she cn hear wat my heart says n reads my mind..
N now i see she reali understands me..
i dunnoe y bt i kept holding on 2 hym coz sumtimes i wanna noe hw PIN n HURT is like..
n guess wat?? its unbearable..
is he trying 2 take revenge on me??!!
maybea all the love that i've given u is juz a stupid waste of my time..

Friday, 15 June 2007

2007-06-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

promise you my heart
I promise you my life
I promise we'll never be apart
I promise not to hurt you
I promise to never make you cry
I promise to always trust you
I promise not to lie
I promise you forever
I promise to do things right
I promise to always be there
I promise until the end
I promise to be your best friend
I promise this forever
your the PEANUT to my BUTTER
your the STAR to my BURST
your the POP to my TART
your the MILKY to my WAY
your the FRUIT to my LOOP
your the LUCKY to my CHARMS
your the ICE to my CREAM
but m0stly....
your the only one i eva wanted.. .

loving you is all i eva wanted
but giving this back to me was such a big burden
that i'm... still carrying now..

we can neva be seperated.. i think. ..

hatred grows in love..
but i will neva hate u..

ignoring me wont be a good thing to do coz i'll take u out of my life..
4eva!!

everybody's heart will alwaes be bro0ken by SOMEONE..
it has alwaes been lyke tat..

Every drop of tears i cry is all for eu..
But u neva saw it coz those tears were all caused by you..

Every tears is a sign of brokeness,,
every silence is a sign of lonliness..

I'm reali holding on,, n i neva meant 2 hurt you so badly but..
y would you?? y did you??
enough is enough..
i'm torn into pieces!! Hope u're happy. ='(
SATISFIED???

******************

this words r all frm me,,
frm my heart..
tis was caused by HYM..
nobody understands hw it feelss.. being hurt so badly..
it's reali lyke a needle piercing through my heart...
n it bleeds,, n bleeds..

Tuesday, 12 June 2007

2007-06-12T12:06:00.000-07:00

i love these songs alot!!!!!!!!!! enjoy hearing it aites..

Tuesday, 12 June 2007

2007-06-12T11:53:00.000-07:00

harlo there..!!
im so sori tat i haven updated my blog for quite a long time..
many things has been going on these daes,,
yesterday i juz oni sent my bestie hme,,
afta she ran away frm hme..
i was actually damn shocked coz i didn't noe she would do tis kinda things..
hais'.. .
hehe.. actually i n HYM haf been together for 3 mths!!
yea.. i love hym aaalllloooooottt...!!
he's the oni 1..
actually i should haf left hym a long time ago,,
bt wat makes me still be wif hym is the love we share,,
n my heart tells me nt 2 let go of hym..
we may fight ,, we may quarrel.. bt i will neva wanna leave hym,,
coz i will end up regretting..
love is blind.. hahs,,
kinn sori noe bout tat dae,, i told u tat i will update bt i neva,,
im sososososo sori.. i wanted 2 update bt i didnt haf the time..
so i hope u will accept my apology.. :))
n 2 all the readers.. hope u enjoy reading muii blog..
<:

Tuesday, 12 June 2007

2007-06-12T11:43:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, 22 May 2007

2007-05-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

At times i miss you,..

At times i hate you. ..

Y would you wanna do

tis to me?..

wat haf i eva done 2 you tat

made you do tis 2 me??

do you noe tat i'm reali

suffering here..

It's like a needle piercing

through my heart and it bleeds...

so badly..

i've cried a million tears for you

bt haf u realise tat doing tis to me

was juz a cruel thing 2 do.. .

Urghh,,,, i swear i haf no bad

intentions towards u . ..

i used 2 listen 2 a gurl tat

was alwaes there for me..

Now, once i lost part of

her friendship,, i juz feel

tat i'm on my own now..

It's reali too late for regrettion..

coz wat i m

going through now is

wat i haf chosen

from my past..

i noe i deserve a much

beta person than you

bt i think

i will not regret choosing

you becoz i noe tat u cn change..

Im giving u a hance,,

bt juz dun take it for granted..

i trust you bt

i lost part of my trust

from the dae u did tat

cruel thing 2 me..

...letting me suffer while

u r hafing fun..

To tell u the truth,,

u are my first

one tat i haf ever trust and

i juz wanna share mt lurve

with u........

Actually, i shuld

haf left u a long time ago,,

bt i juz wanna give u a chance..

i reali cnt explain

y im still wif u bcoz

NOBODY will understand me..

Sometimes your words hurts

me and i cn also sae tat

lurve is blind bt it is

about believing n trusting

one another..

After two mths haf past,,

HE came back 2 my life..

WhY????

After 2 mths of

trying 2 4get hym,,

n when i finallt did,, he came back..

I used 2 lurve u so badly

bt now my heart belongs 2 some1 else..

I'm sooo sori..

you're juz too late.. :'(

~~~

hais. i juz feel like crying n0w..

LOLs....

i cnt share 'things' wif ANYONE bcoz

all you do is hurt me more..

As a fren, i thought you would understand..

bt all you do is hurt me more..

I noe tat u would sae

bla bla bla..

Now is all me, myself n hym..

i oni cn depend on myself now..

Tats all..

Crying dosent solve a problem

bt i usually cy juz 2 let it

all out..

I dun think anyone would understand

wat i m going through now..

You shouldnt think

too much bout hym coz its oni

a few daes u stead n

i think he cares bout u n he is taking tis seriously..

dun let your feelings bother u tat much..

aites,,

u shuld be patient wif hym too...

give urself a break, gurl!!

................

i reali hate those

promises tat u made

which usually u cannot keep..

anyway 2 all the readers..

sori 4 the late updation of my blog..

so. .. enjoy reading aites!!

my world is

dark without you.. .

i miss you

Sunday, 13 May 2007

2007-05-13T12:20:00.000-07:00

tats -US-

we used 2 be like tis. ..

?? will everything end??

~~fwen 4vea!!

Sunday, 13 May 2007

2007-05-13T12:04:00.000-07:00

i cnt believe tis is happening. ..

i think im in wrong. ..

oh,, no no,, i dun think,, bt i reali m in wrong. ..

everything tat i've done has effected our friendship..

it's all my fault!!..

now i cnt do anything wif it

coz its done.

u were rite.. i've changed,, nt you.

everything you said was rite.. .

im so stupid tat i didnt listen 2 u.

im so sori i didnt listen 2 u n made u lost ur voice..

oh,, i 4get.. there's no use saying sori,,

so wateva la.. i cnt do anything n0w. coz

n i think im gonna lose everything..

i mean EVERYTHING. ..

lose as in ,, the time we use 2 b,,

im nt saying tat u haf changed bt,,

i made things changed,,

n like u sae. i've changed 2. ..

there's no use talking bout tis coz u haf stop caring,,

n everything tat i didnt wan 2 happen was done BY ME..

its all over,, or its juz the beginning..

i dunno.

tis was wat happen last few daes ago..

n i reali didnt expect tis 2 happen..

if u juz noe hw it feels 2 be in my shoes,,

hais. wateva lars!!

im juz talkin shit. nobody cares anymore,,

ur life had been perfect. ..

i juz hope tat everything will b normal 1 dae.. .

i noe hw it feels 2 miss some1 tat u haf left 4 a few mths ago . .

tats wat i didnt want 2 happen 2 me,,

i didnt want 2 lose the person tat i've care most,,

i i've loved..

juz like u lose tat person,,

i feel so stupid saying tis bt i've said it.. aites. ..

i think im movin towards the wrong path. ..

its true,,

everything u said was rite.....

on our 2nd mth anni,, he didnt wish me anything!!

i thought he remembered bt i think he 4got..

bt 2 me u will 4va be the fren tat i haf alwaes wanted. ..

i will neva 4get wat u had done 4 me. ..

the true meaning of friendship was found all in u. ..

i juz realised,,, bt i juz took it 4 granted.. .. .. .. .. ..

my world is dark
without you. ..
i miss you.. .

2007-05-04T19:21:00.000-07:00

2dae skool sux man!!

tat idiolt jay lim spoilt my mood sia!!

haiyo00..

i pity kinn seh. ..

y every fridae is her bad luck dae??

sumthing surely will happen 1..

actually juz n0w @ after skool..

kinn told me tat karen tan wanna mit her

outside general office..

then first she go wif danson..

after tat she asked me 2 mit her @ there

coz i, dayang n sabariah was at the canteen..

we went there then she said tat she n danson must mit

a police officer 2 talk bout the atikah hp

tat lost..

she actually reported 2 police tats y the police officer came. ..

we waited like 1 or 2 hours + 4 them 2 finish..

i didnt want 2 go hme yet coz i was worried bout kinn0,,

hais. everything is over now..

i actuali gt lots of things happening

in the last few daes bt i had no time

2 type it out here.. so,,

i gtg now.. coz i dun think i gt anything 2 sae..

my world is dark
without you.. .
i miss you. ..

Monday, 30 April 2007

2007-04-30T02:19:00.000-07:00

7 more daes!!!!! yeah!!

cnt wait cnt wait cnt wait!!!

LOLssss...

my world is dark

without you. ..

i miss you.. .

Monday, 30 April 2007

2007-04-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

hais.. 2dae first dae exam!!

walau stress sia.. haiyo. ..

i scared i fail sia. ..

the paper 2dae 'a little bit' difficult.. .

haiya..

anyway i miss loadsSsSs.. la..

hais. poor sakinah sia..

juz now atikah mum talked 2 her

bout the phone..

first she complaint 2 teacher then

she told her mum,, after tat she report 2 police.

wat is wrong wif her??? kinn hw many

times oreadi sae she neva take.. then.. haiyoooooo...

i think she trying 2 frame kinn ar..

i think so oni la...

wateva la. ..

kesian seh kinn0..

anyway 2morrow ish holidae so..

i gt 2 rest!!,, i mean after my first exam la..

k lor. .. i gt nutting else 2 write.. so..

gudbye~*~*~

my world is dark

without you. ..

i miss you.. .

2007-04-29T06:04:00.000-07:00

anyway.. 8 more daes..

wohoo!! i juz cnt wait..!!!

~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

my world is dark
without. ..
i miss you.. .

Sunday, 29 April 2007

2007-04-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

guess wat??.. 2dae i called hym..

wohoo!! LOLs... bt.. actually he

asked me 2 call hym. ..

THE BAD NEWS IS.. his mum noe

bout us.. i was thinkin he wanted

2 break.. bt he said tat he reali didnt

wanna lose me so.. he told his mum tat

he broke up wif me oreadi bt actuali ..

we r still 2gether.. bt.. he saes tat..

if his studies is droppin.. he thinks we

beta break.. bt i told hym 2 concentrate

on his 'o' level n juz dun drop.. hais.

i juz dun wanna loose hym.. .

the gd news is.. tat.. he broke up wif 2

of the gurls who forced hym 2 stead wif hym..

bt.. he still haven break wif one more gurl..

.....

if i break wif hym,,,,

first of all.. i will neva 4give hymm.. like real..

secondly,, i will neva keep contact wif hym ..

lastly i will neva wanna haf another guy.. maybea ar. ..

i gtg n0w aites.. maybea i will update 2morrow aites..

tata...~~~~~

my world is dark

without you.. .

i miss you. ..

Friday, 27 April 2007

2007-04-27T00:50:00.000-07:00

2dae i had fun during P.E. lesson..

i played captain's ball.. coz it had

been quite long i did not play tat..

i kinda miss my old fwens n NETBALL!!

during pri sch, my cca was actually netball..

hais. nvm n0w it is VOLLEYBALL!!

i injured myself during the game,,,

coz i my fren acidentally put her leg

in front then i tripped..

my leg was bleeding but it didnt reali hurt..

poor atikah.. he hp kena stolen 2dae.. haiyo00..

actually she kept it in kinn0's bag bt..

then after recess,, when kinn0 check.. .

it wasn't there!! kinn0 told me tat they check

alot of times oreadi then bt dun haf.. the prob is

kinn0' hp was there bt atikah's 1 was stolen..

y 'they' steal atikah's hp instead of kinno's??

i dun get it.. haiyo0.. kinn u so lucky seh!!

poor atikah.. . if my hp was stolen.. i would

haf kiiled tat person!! like real oni.. hehe :)...

anyway i thought of going 2 kinn0's place juz n0w..

bt it was gonna rain so.. tk jadi larh.. haiyo0 yo...

yesterdae he sick... haiyo.. hope he get well soon..

hais i reali miss u.. anyway my bestie gt new stead

oso neva tell me.. tkpe2.. aku ingat..hehe.. :)

AKU INGAT TAU.. hahahaha..

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

my world is dark

without you..

i miss you. ..

Thursday, 26 April 2007

2007-04-26T21:15:00.000-07:00

omg!! 2dae he's sick. hais.. .it was quite sad though

i cnt get 2 talk 2 hym 2dae bt i ask hym 2 rest..

HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON!!

2dae is one of the unluckiest dae i had!!

first of all.. my class kena scolding first dae in the morning

by my form teacher.. The next thing was 2dae i gt geog test..

erm juz like do normal ws frm wb bt cannot refer tb.

tat was not all.. i didnt study 4 my previous test n i failed!!~~ 6/30..

haiyo..

the most 'SWAY' thing tat happen was i dropped my bbt water.

i was so tired n thirsty bt i n muii fwens juz walked.. .away..

the last bt not least thing was when i called hym 2dae.. he was sick.. .

he gt high fever. OMG!! im quite woried 4 hym..

hope he get well so0o0o0n..

WOHHOO!! Finally tat 'girl' apologised 2 kinn0..

i think she felt guilty bt. ..

the thing is tat she said tat kinno was like 'over'.

hais. i dunnoe wats wrong wif her.

if u wanna apologise, culd u do it sincerely??

tis question alwaes come into my mind..

shuld i let u go?? i dunnoe bt i reali lurve u..

i think i'm suffering man bt,.. .

tis is life so i'll bear wif it n

i wont let u go..

coz i reali lurve u..

once i lose u.. . i noe tat i cnt get u back so. ..

i will neva wan let u go juz like tat..

I may not get 2 c u as often as i lyke..

i may not get 2 hold u in my arms thru the nite.. .

bt deep in my heart, i truly n0e tat ur the only 0ne

i lurve n i cnt let u go..

my world is

dark without you..

i miss you.

Thursday, 26 April 2007

2007-04-26T07:07:00.000-07:00

woohoo!!

11 more daes!!

i juz cnt wait..!!

hope my lurve for hym

will last. ..

11 more daes n0e. hehe.. LOLs..

my world is dark

without you..

i miss you. ..

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

2007-04-25T21:42:00.000-07:00

harlo0!! i haven update 4 quite long so.. i'll juz write bout the past..

Monday is quite a rough day actually..

I went to sch bt i dunnoe y i gt tis bad feeling tat smt bad is gonna happen on tat dae..

As usual at nite i called hym n all.. bt after a few minutes talkin..

he said tat he need 2 tell me smt..

he didnt want 2 tell me bt i forced hym 2 tell so he told me..

He said tat there is 3 gurls interested in hym n they asked hym 4 stead..

not 1 but 3..

My tears suddenly rolled down my eyes..

I was feeling hurt but he told me tat he swears tat he oni lurve me and he reali did not wanna hurt my feelings but he was forced to stead wif them.. hais.

He said tat he was sorry bt i oreadi 4give hym..

he on the phone coz he said tat he didn't wanna lose me.. bt.. .

do u think im tat stupid 2 let u juz go like tat??

2dae was quite a great dae coz kinn0 sounded tat GIRL..
woohhooo!! kinn0 rox man..
she reali said it out loud..
coz tat GIRL called her pompan setan..
I feel tat GIRL deserves it coz WAT THE HELL MAN>
hw culd she call kinn0 pompan setan.. then she wat?! pompan sundal?!
it was a great thing man.. kinn0 was damn great man..
lira n atikah was helping kinn0 bt.. i n sabariah juz sat there 2 watch it..

so.. dun mess wif kinn0 coz she will get u back man..

it was a success coz tat ***** is finally gonna apologise..
-Y-E-A-H-..

Anyway 12 more daes 2 my second mth anniversary!!
hope my love for hym will last..

i'll alwaes love u, syg.

2007-04-21T16:45:00.000-07:00

2dae ish juz lyke the other normal daes..

ITS SATURDAE!! wohoo!!~~

actually its my first time writing a blog so

i reali dun noe wat 2 write..

i'll talk bout my life..

erm.. my life had been GREAT n all..

i reali love hym alot..

my fren, KinnO calls hym an asshole.. hehe..

tats us-->>>>>>>

kinno n muii.. she's veri pwetty rite??

hehehe ..she gt the looks..

anyway i talked 2 hym 2dae.. i MISS HYM LOADS!!

i juz wish i could spent another dae wif hym..

k la mayb ltr i update my blog..

signing off ~*~*~*

2007-04-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

so 2dae i created a new blog!! -Y-E-A-H-

i lurve it!! Wohoo00.. bt i dunnoe wat my frens think bout it..

i talked 2 hym 2dae 4 quite long time bt he made me cry 2dae.. :'(

It wasn't a gd thing.. DUH.. bt I reali cried 2dae coz he hurt me by saeing sumthing..

but i still LOVE HYM.. n i forever will.. LOLS.. :)

i talked 2 my bestie 2dae!! i reali miss

her alot sehh.. so long we neve mit.. hais.

bt im n0t a lesbo k..

i juz wish we could go out one dae 2gether n go shoppin..

bt dun worry.. tat dae will surely come. ..

kinno ish the best.. hope u still will gimme the advise i need..

hehe:)

If only i culd spent the nite, looking at the stars,

alone, on the 'tallest' mountain & think back all

the problems i had, and juz let it all go,

with juz a blink of an eye..

gd nite.. aites...

signing off~*~* AiaHAh