there have been alot of things going on in my life... i juz wanna try 2 bear wif it but i dunnoe la.. first of all,, its bout VOLLEYBALL!! i have tis weird feeling, like dissapointment feeling, when ALOT of ppl did not come for training during one of the days,,, but i think afta ms gan lecture them then they went 4 training coz i think kena force or wat afta her lecturing.. hais.. first of all those PT coach ask we all to do its bcoz we need it,, if we are VERY good then he will nt ask we all 2 do those duck walks n all,, i dun wanna think tat im good coz i noe IM NOT.. n i juz wanna be beta then juz waste my effort down the drain,,.. i dun wanna regret 2 juz let all my hard effort down the drain... . bout my volleyballers,, 2 some of them im juz dissapointed bt im happy tat some of them tried n i cn reali see their effort.. im nt saying like tat coz i noe im NOT good bt i juz wanna them 2 realise tat they are proving me right.. TRY CHALLENGING UR LIMITS.. n use ur time wisely 4 studies n training.. i juz dun wan 2 see everything juz gone like tat.. cn it be like the last time?? hais,, .. so bout ym,, i wasnt dissapointed at her,, bt oni abit bt she prove me wrong,, i thought she will nt improve n juz drop out of volley bt she prove me wrong.. she improved ALOT.... tats the spirit i wanna see.. n now kin is slacking .. hais.. i dunnoe y?? i reali dun?? izzit bcoz of volley?? actually i dun get it.. im abit bt i think im veri dissapointed in her... sometimes i dunnoe y ppl think bout themselves instead of the team,, haiyooooo0000.... bt now i cn sae tat so0o yee is much more better then kin,, kin had been in volley since sec 1 bt sook yee has been in volley in the mid year like tat,, bt she is now better than kin n she also improved alot.. sometimes these words are so damn true-->> When you fight, fight like a lion.. If you get hurt, fight like a wounded lion.. .THE ONLY LOSERS IN THIS WORLD ARE THE QUITTERS.. believe me,, its true.. rmb DUN EVA GIVE UP COZ U WILL END UP REGRETTING.. anyway.. he changed..!! everything like went back 2 normal,, i guess?? niwaes,, i had enough telling anybody bout my life coz WHO CARES??? its oni me! i cn oni tell it 2 myself.. someone is like berubah-ing.. i dunnoe y.. its hard 2 handle things which ppl dunt noe hw difficult 2 handle it.. life's been tough.. sometimes,, things tat i wants tell n express 2 someone,, its hard.. they dun care n will sometimes give comments which hurt me alot in the inside,, bt i dun wanna tell them coz they will think they are evrytime RITE.. tats wat i hate,, sometimes things tat tat they sae tat its nt true n nt rite bt... sometimes they like discouraging me 2.. i dunn wanna tell them coz i dun wanna tell them the truth until they find it out themselves... anyway im over it,, im so damn over those things tat make my life miserable.. . im juz trying 2 see the bright sight of life,, if there is in my life? niwaes,, on fridae im meeting hym,, i mish hym!!! hope he will be there n he shuld be.. ily syg!! 143 syg!! hehe,, i crazy bout hym,,,,,, hehe.. ((: lols... bt i think tat i have 2 go through difficulties in life no matter wat i do n i will never give up.. so hope tat the readers noe wat i have been going through in my life.. so0o0o,, enjoy reading.. kk.. buhbye~~~~
Life was all bout e sake of livin. Till e moment i met u. ur my everything. Darling, i really lurve u. u noe i do. Ur the one. who gave me the feelin ive nv had. Please i beg euu. dun eva tell mi gdbye. dun eva break my heart. dun eva leave mi. //I LURVE U//
I think its fading away,, im trying to keep my love for u strong but.. .,,, Im scared,, I reali m.. nobody’s there when I need them.. not dun even my frens coz they r too bz wif their own life n problems,,, nobody cares coz now im on my own.. life’s unfair,, I noe.. . nobody’s there when I cry or when I reaaaaaaaalllllllllliiiiiiiii need them.. its hard 2 survive... my tears can neva stop dripping out of my eyes... sometimes I feel so stupid.. I have lots of problem but I didn’t wanna share it wif anyone coz y would they even wanna care if I have a problem... they gt their own problem so0o..,, WATEVA LA!! im so sick n tired of my stupid idiolt life!! but I will neva get sick n tired of volleyball.. I dunnoe y but I loooove volley n HYM... im trying to keep it strong n look at the bright of life.. sometimes u get what u wan,, sometimes u dun.. during the training when I cried,, the reason I cried was because I thought I failed what I wanted to acieve,, my spiking n all sux!! i nearly gave up but I told myself not to coz giving up is a wrong thing to do...this songs explain part of my life,, juz listen to it n I think u will understand..
10:15 PM
Friday, July 6, 2007
FRIENDSHIP is a promise made in the heart, unbreakable by distance, unchangeable by time..."
today was the worst day of my life!! volleyball training today was damn tough.. OMG!! we kena punished until most of us cried.. i cried coz i cannot tahan,, the pressure.. hais.. . anyway today is oso a bad luck day,, first kin,, went out wif khairi n all,, thinking tat she has forgotten redy bt everything came back,, shak told her those stuff all n when i called her today,, she was,, :'( when i called her,, n hear hr crying,, i couldnt tahan coz i cnt stand seeing her being hurt like tat.. i think she was confused,, i reali cnt hearing her cry n all bcoz of tat stupid GUY.. haiyo yo.......... n today,, everything came back,, all my past memories tat i have forgotten long ago came back.. it was the worst thing eva..................... it has been like weeks,, nearly mths,, i haven met hym or talked 2 hym on the phone.. i miss hym alot!! i cnt take tis lonliness,,, anyway... i cnt believe tat i suspected tat HE likes me.. i dunnoe liao... i dunnoe y bt i wanna find out the truth actually... hais,,, isit possible tat i fell for hym????? no la i dun think so la.. IM ATT REdy!! hehe.. niwaes,,, life is difficult!
10:57 PM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
In love,, ithere are a alot of problems.. That i gurantee you bt the only 2 solve it to find out the truth. Nutting bt the truth.. There will als0 be lots of misunderstanding, thats wat i learnt, so we must understand one another and trust each other in order for someone's relationship to last. During these days,, i thought a lot.. It has been nearly 3-4 weeks i haven meet hym bcoz both of us r busy.. hais'' I missed hym alot,, i missed his voice,, i missed those moments in the past when we were together.. ad i mostly missed the ****es we had. It was quite difficult for me to bear with this lonliness but it is reali killing me.. Letting u go wasnt wat i want bt it is reali hard 2 find a replacement.. I've seen guts these daes n they cn neva replace u,,.. the past was the past,, I've forgiven you redyy.. Like you say, its either i will never love you or my love will fade away.. guess wat?? tat wasnt rite.. Nobody noe hw it feels,,,,,,,, maybea to the ppl out there, im juz wasting my time but i will neva regret wat decisions i've decided and the difficulties i will have 2 go through.. The past is now over.. i cn neva do anything 2 change my past.. I think i wanna start anew,, i will 4get my horrible past... he is changing,, i cn see it,, feel it 2.. n my love for hym is still STRONG!! hehe.. nutting ppl sae or do cn change my love for hym,, so.. love me or hate me.. either way u're still thinking of me... . niwaes sori 4 my late updation of my blog.. ;)
2:30 PM
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Yesterday you asked me something,
i thought you knew it..
So i told you with a smile
Its all about you., :D
Then you whispered in my ear
And you told me too,,
Said you make my life worthwhile
Its all about you
And i would answer all your wishes
if you ask me to..
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close
And say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Its all about you, yeah! Love ya :P
